My Favourite Son-of-a...

You know, I made bloody hell sacrifices to get where I am today. but perhaps i wouldn't mind throwing it all away.

but why would I do that ? why would anyone do that !? its actually quite simple, isn't it. its obvious you don't care about what you have. Of course, my only question to you is then why all that 'bloody hell'sacrifice ?

Maybe it was easy for me. Maybe, it was not a sacrifice...

ok - lets just stick to your fucking idea - and not of the world's idea slash impression of you- ok !? What the fuck !??

yeah, sometimes i didn't go for movies, sometimes i didn't go out to play. but its not exactly with some sort of a sense of vengence or ambition that I did what I did. I did it because I was good at it - because others wanted me to do it

Now hold on a fucking minute - lets stick to just urself ok !? don't drag anyone else into this

yeah - ... ... yeah - it was me, I did what I thought was best - but I wasn't just good enough. not only for the purpose of those "sacrifices" but in everything else - take my love life for example...

Why the fuck do I have to take this everytime !?? What, in the Hell is your problem !???

And the hell do you have to use such language !? I can't see why its so necessary !!! What are you trying to do !? show me that just coz u can vomit explicits that you have a point !? I mean, seriously, what is your problem man !!!???

Alright...but I don't want that shit nomore...look where we started and where we are now. you wanting to throw it all away and now your not-so-fairy-tale romantic crashes. So where's the point of 'you wanting to throw it all away' now ?

I don't know man - its like my existence, its like its empty...only that I am searching for something, that when I find it - it will be all I need and I can melt into oblivion with satisfaction of achieving. i don't want fame, no money just that...that object, no - perhaps that one person...eh...na i don't think so..

Dude, Its that feeling...the feeling on content. but look at others in the world around you. Many of them have made it big coming from humble, lowly backgrounds - and they have made it, graduating from the biggest names in the world, working in the most fanciest of brands...

to each his own, I don't fucking care...

mind it...

ok...but maybe that sense completes them - but mine doesn't . I'm sorry

i'm sorry...for your poor self, i'm sorry for all those who believed in you and worked to get you working

I tried, didn't I. I did all i could but I wasn't good enough...I was never good enough,just the second best maybe. you think people closest to me are proud of me ?

dude, don't do this to yourself...

do you think my teachers remember me, that my friends miss me ? do u think I made a beggar smile

you want to know if you made a difference...there's just one way but it'll take time to come to you. One day man, one day...now get out this headful of crap, and pass me that cigarette...let's go. I've to go early tomorrow...

That was thirty years ago. We are gathered here today to bid farewell to our beloved Mr....guess i'm going to miss his whining - my fav son of a bitch !

In search of ambition

It's 2 in the morning - allow me to specify - Saturday morning...ahem...yes, the FRIDAY evening and night was spent at office. Well so far its never been a big deal but I'm just giving you what you'd like to see.

After hours of data mining, report writings, processing analyses and 'ppt-ing the findings', my team and I indulge in peaceful unwinding. One is streaming the comic scenes of 'Andaz Apna Apna' and laughing himself silly! The other one is standing right behind him and...laughing himself silly !!

"Aa dekh, yeh mark dekh MARK...arre mark to chchodo...patte ko dekho".........

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My attention got diverted for a moment....it seems 'Crime-Master' Gogo is doing his bit and doing it pretty well!!

Of the many thoughts I have on how I've to spend my already begun weekend, working mostly punctuated with household chores...yes, we do those once a week...there are thoughts of hosting my flat-mate's parents, visiting my little sister and other things. But there's one thought which is my personal favourite - nothing. Just blank. This may be a little difficult to comprehend for the fairer sex - yes men can do with blank stares, they're actually NOT thinking anything....anything at all!! Listen to Russel Peters (for the latest on this) - use that common calling card - it's called youtube.com.

Coming back to 'our' (kind's) favourite thought of nothing, I really don't want to plan anything for what's going to come this weekend. What started off as a good idea for the quick and dirty weekend trips and practically extended to all of my personal living...and guess what - it's pretty cool. There are those moments when I could just say, "been there...done that"...but then again - I know that sounds snooty. But at the end of it all, I think it'll be great to actually say those words for real and back them up with evidence (I've started collecting those).

Won't it just be great for an ambition !!

Spirit of new

every once in a while

there comes a guy

who captures your imagination

you'd never seen him

or touched or kissed him

but man! he's such a sensation !

but everytime

there is a smile

tis followed by indignation

so lady, heads up

keep your spirits puffed

skip over to a new fascination,

have your chocolate cream

hear the birds sing

coz baby life is a big celebration!